Saturday, February 19, 2005
guess i will never ever had a chance to clear my name..
thinkin bout it..
i knew this would happen one day..
i knew all this would come to me..
i have even expected..
tellin this to sy beforehand..
that i am sure this would happen
i guess i shall just stay away frm everybody as possible as i can..
doin this would then make everybody happy..
didnt you noe i've tried to make them go back..
didnt you noe i tried all my best..
but both did not want to listen..
i could only do this..
cos i noe i wasnt the best to do all this..
i wasnt the best person to solve..
so i stop tryin..
hopin that they could solve their own
leavin the prob was not the best idea afteall..
cos for now they say i am snatchin away their frend..
i did not want to seems to anybody this..
but i didnt noe evrybody think i am this..
now i don wanna make any excuses for myself..
cos i noe i cant stop you frm thinkin i am..
why would everybody have this thinkin..
recently i have a call by a friend..
tellin me to becarful..
i knew it long ago..
i am not the girl like i was in sec one..
i am not as blur as i was..
i noe wats there for me..
i noe bout all this..
attitude??
you guys just don understand me well
have you guys tried to understand me?
before you guys did.
you guys just jump into a conclusion..
sayin i have change..
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
what is happenin now..
why are all this happenin at this moment.
when this is the most impt time..
why is everybody slackin..
urgh. wake up..
i need to do something to this..
if not i will regret after leavin..
urgh!
come on people..
things are not done..
morale is at the lowest point..
this is not the time for all this..
relations between each other drifted..
have everything said gone on a deaf ear for you guys..
who wil then replace us..
lookin at all of the councillors..
i can frankly say we failed...
we failed in all area..
if things are not gonna be done right now..
we are puttin ourselve in another big hole..
a hole too big for us to climb out...
others wll not be able to rescue us
we will then "die" in the hole..
till then regretin is of no use at all..
you can say you regret..
but does all this matter in weeks to come..
if nothing is gona get started..
every batch is a unique batch..
we have to prove our worth to the rest...
don let anybody have an excuse in putting us down..
what we really need now is to concentrate..
it isnt too late..
but it wil be late if everything continues this way..
if you guys don wanna do anything..
i shall have nth to say..
momories will then just be gone..
forever!
THINK THROUGH..
do u guys really want all your hardwork
to go down to the drain..
all the late evenin in school
plannin and crackin our head..
thinkin back at the sucess of the camp..
thats wat team work is all about..
it may not be teh greatest camp..
but its our greatest archievement..
it was where we all bonded together...
remember the nights we have our reflection till 12 or even later??
remember the accident that happen??
remember the food cheer and stuff.?
remember the the day we were punished for our mistake??
remember the night where we sang toether??
we did everything together...
so now we need to do everything together too!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
hectic day
more to come..
i think it was really good to have tat talk..
or you can say scoldin..
all of us needed that..
in order to buck us up..
i can actually say..
there was really some problems comin out...
everything is not as usual..
relations are not as gd as before...
are we just too stress..??
too busy??
i could have done all this..
if it wouldnt be that fear in me..
sensitive? i guess so..
i am just too overly sensitive i guess..
but theres nth i can change bout the prob now..
and not gonna use this as an excuse
regret?? i guess its not realy wise..
there may be abit of me that feels that but..
olt is just round the corner..
all plannins are in the mids..
hope everything will be a success..
this will be the last event before i am gonna step down..
gonna make it a success!
wanna leave the board with satifaction
sec one interview is bout to begin..
wana recruit a good batch of sec one...
i don wana see the board goin down..
Monday, February 14, 2005
8 weeks is all that i left to spent with the board..
so much thing that i have not done for the board..
how will it be like after the 8 weeks..
only memories would be left..
the board was like my family..
we went through thick and thins together..
so much activites we did together..
would al this be forgotten?
life would start anew in weeks to come..
would i be able to adapt..?
lots happen today..
problems piling up..
just did my research on pulau ubin...
brought me back to obs..
remembering the camp..
the unforgettable aquary swim..
the pitchin of tents everyday...
the dark and spooky mountaneous area..
the dark night..
the friends i made..
the meals that we shared..
the last night i spent in obs..( the most memorable night)
the instructor..(sexy leg)
the 8 hours of kayakin..
the scary lakes..
the 100 steps up to campsite 2
the clean toliet of campsite 2
the boat we made
the food we got to eat at campsite 1
the night our tent was filled with water..
the last night where our campin site was deep in..
the night where we hike deep in pular ubin..
the night where most grps were, where we eat the best dinnner done by us
(chicken instant noodles with luncheon meat)
the laughters and craps that my grp came out with..
the night we played in our tents..
the night i was to do all the dares..
the night where we were cleanin the canteen in campsite 1
the rope couse..
the heavy campin bag with all can food and 3 bottles of water..
the last night doin packin thinkin that we had lost one camping bag
everything i did in obs..
is was really wonderful
